3.0 x 10^8! Part 1

Light,

At the end of the tunnel where they said you've been set.

I pray as I try to digest.

I've treaded all these miles, trying to find the piles,

Of clear skies where you lie.

I'm weary! it's dreary! it's scary!

The vivacity is faded and all I am is jaded.

Light. Life. Life. Light.

Where are you? How do I find you?

My vision is blurry, my mind untidy, my heart ruined badly.

I don't understand what I require, to tap into what you actually desire.

Am I unworthy? undeserving?

All this thinking is unnerving.

Why do you run away from me?

Don't you see any room for dazzle inside of me?

I'm sorry if I took your care for granted. I never thought without you, I'd be stranded.

I need to see you again old friend.

I need to feel that perfect wave, when you'd penetrate my soul and make me crave,

Those beautiful views you'd conjure, that made me thirst for that exposure.

Oh light, you made me whole. Patched me up nicely, never left a hole.

Made sure I never felt alone. Always gave me some sort of backbone.

Gifted me with a purpose, even when all I saw were tatters.

Saw my tears from a distance and ripped them out of my existence.

Like a flower you made me bloom. Never witnessed a single gloom.

I miss your touch! That glittery glossy touch!

Please come back.

As I sob, all my mind can do is throb,

Will I ever find you? Will it ever feel true?

Will we ever make us work? Or should I just give in to the dark,

As it breaks my sweet but feeble heart.